first entry, i'm alien cola (aliola). it's 19:12 on the 8th of september, 2024.
i recently stopped being a neet and being afraid of going out on my own. that's pretty good.
recently i've been dealing with a problem so i wrote a poem about it. here it is:
"god put a little pebble in me,
on an ordinary day.
if it goes i'll mourn it so,
if it stays it'll take my life away.
i went and ate a grain of sand,
on an ordinary day.
i pinched it between my index and thumb,
and started to pray.
don't look at me with those eyes,
i might need a little pill or two.
don't look at me with those eyes,
don't you love me too.
don't look at me with those eyes,
i might need a little pill or two.
don't look at me with those eyes please,
don't you love me too.
god put a little pebble in me,
on an ordinary day.
i love you but please just wait
until i come of age."
i hope you like it. there's a massive chance that my life won't be 'taken away' but i've been stressed out about that tiny percentage.
i feel like an alien myself a lot. that wasn't really why i made that cute alien-rika thing, i just found it cute after i did it and decided to decorate the site around the 'anime girls i love edited to look like little aliens' thing.
feeling weird is uncomfortable and isolating but it's fun when you can just go 'gleeble mreeple mongh yeargh'.....